I woke up at 10 AM today. I crawled out of bed, clenched the rug with my toes, and took a piss. Nothing monumental. I smoked a cigarette and had a cup of coffee, still pretty pedestrian. I went to the store and loaded up on Morning Star Farm's finest in imitation burgers, chicken nuggets, bacon,and sausage and made my way back to my place, hooded and well concealed from the drizzle .
I did all of this without looking at my computer once. It has been off for two days, a new record (save for when it's being fixed.) I've decided to take a well deserved break from the internet and start living my life, something that is long overdue. I'm taking a break from any taxing social obligations as well, and due to my new found alcohol abstinence, I'm sure no one will mind.
"You're not drinking..You're a vegetarian, and now you're isolating yourself from people? What the fuck man!"
Yeah, that's what I thought too. I want to paint. I want to travel. I want to lose 20 lbs. I want to watch sunsets and drive around at night. All these things are made increasingly more difficult to achieve when you've become burdened with things like relationships, whether friendly or romantic. I'm giving up. On both, for now.
I'm not depressed. I'm being productive. I'm doing the most positive thing I can for myself, which is staying away from elements that drain my time and energy with negativity. No more will I drag myself into work on a Saturday morning, still partially drunk and feeling sick from the Chinese food I ate at 3 in the morning. I'll still be pissed off by the fact that I'm at work, and I'll still be cross and snippy with customers, but that's who I am. My whole mission is to continue being myself without having to be bogged down by upholding a social life.
There's no ill will toward anyone, this is just something I want to to. I'll continue 'blogging' (I fucking hate that word) and I'll continue working two jobs. Wouldn't want to disappoint the three people who read this thing.
Lastly, on the subject of vegetarianism: If Hitler can do it, so can I.